Living on Purpose: Crystal Oertle Herorin – Addiction, Recovery, and No Shame

Living on Purpose: Crystal Oertle

Crystal’s story is not rosy, it’s not exactly what many want to hear. She is a recovering heroin addict, something that usually brings about much shame. But she courageously found herself on a stage in Columbus, OH, recording a TED Talks segment, sharing her story of addiction and recovery. She tells her story candidly and honestly with hopes that it will help at least one person, just one person make the decision to get clean.

Her journey doesn’t end on that stage. Crystal went on to live on purpose using her voice to help others break free from their addictions with “No Shame” through her blog Erase The Her decision to give back and help others was a decision to live on purpose. Devoting her recovery to encouraging others to follow her path and get clean with no shame. She is breaking barriers and stigmas so that more will be brave enough to come forward and get help.

Living on purpose requires healing our past hang ups, hurts, and fears so that we can help others do the same.

Thank you Crystal for living on purpose.

Day 27 – Cycle of Failure Crushes with Depression

Depression sets in when all else has failed. You have beat yourself up with guilt, beat others up with anger and beat up your mind with fear. Now the weight of all that is crushing you and making you feel like you are not capable or worthy of anything good. You don’t want to or are not able to participate in everyday life. You may be able to do the bare minimum and not doing that successfully but it drains all of your energy. You feel lost in a tunnel that has no end and feel like the end will never come.

Depression can be a deep dark journey and may require professional help. If you feel this way for more than a day or so, you may need to talk to your doctor about getting help. Clinical depression can be successfully treated with medication and therapy. For those who suffer from situational depression, medication and dealing with the issues that are causing the depression will eventually alleviate the depressed symptoms.

Break the Cycle

To break the Cycle of Failure, you first need to identify where you are in the cycle right now. Are you depressed? Are you fearful? Are you angry? Are you feeling guilty? Once you have identified where you are begin to ask yourself some questions about why you feel the way you do. You have to face the situation head on and yes it will be painful but also worth it once you begin to see yourself going down a different path. A path that is new and bright. Let’s revisit the Story of the Pit again to see what happens in the later chapters as she begins to ask questions about why.

            Chapter Four

I walk down the same street
There’s a deep hole in the sidewalk
I walk around it

            Chapter Five

I walk down another street

 As you can see in chapter four she still goes down the same path, she recognizes he pit but makes a different decision. In the final chapter she learns to avoid the street all together. That is freedom, when you recognize the street even before you get to it and go in another direction.

You have to break the cycle one step at a time. You will not be able to conquer all of the steps at once. You have to be able to deal with each issue individually. Only move on to another once you have conquered the first. I spent a lot of time in the Fear stage and quite honestly fear still plagues me. However I don’t allow it to immobilize me anymore. I deal with the fear head on and keep going. I face what I am scared of and am no longer afraid to take the steps I need to. You can do it too. It starts with making a decision to break the cycle. If you need help, don’t be afraid to ask for it. Start with friends and family that you trust. This will be your first key step towards success.

I leave you with this prayer of protection in your journey.

Heavenly Father,

I pray that now and through my life You would strengthen and enlighten me, show me the way Satan and his demonic spirits are trying to hinder, tempt, lie, and distort the truth in my life. Enable me to be the kind of person that will please you. Enable me to be aggressive in prayer and faith. Enable me to be aggressive mentally, think about and practice Your word and to give You, your rightful place in my life. Father I place all of my cares, all of my anxieties, all of my worries and all of my concerns once and for all on You, because I know that You love me and watch over me according to 1 Peter 5:7.

In Jesus Name I claim this victory today according to John 14:14.


Day Twenty – Don’t Worry Be Happy

Don’t worry be happy now. I remember that song it has a little silly tune and very simple lyrics, but a very profound message. Yet there are many people who live under tremendous stress worrying about things that are out of their control or not even in the near future. It seeps into their day and steals their moments of joy and happiness.

Christmas is less than a week away and I am excited! Not because I am expecting any lavish gifts or because I will be going somewhere special, but because it is an important family holiday that recognizes the birth of Christ. It is a time of joy and peace not of worry and stress. I purposely do not think about anything that is not related to me enjoying the holiday during this time.

Flash back to last year when I was surprised with a lay off weeks before Christmas. Yes it could have ruined my holiday, but I did not allow it too. I continued with the plans I had for the holiday and my children were ecstatic with their gifts. I dealt with the layoff and the rent in January. I truly enjoyed the whole week playing the Wii with my kids.

As it turns out the situations that I could have allowed to bring on stress worked out just fine. Nothing fell apart and we were fine. So my holiday gift to you all this year is to don’t worry be happy. Allow the peace, joy and warmth of this holiday season to envelope you and enjoy the holiday that you celebrate. Those things you want to be so worried about will still be there in January so deal with them then.

Happy Holidays!!

Day Nineteen – Being a Good Steward is a Key to Success

“For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, in their eagerness to get rich, have wandered away from the faith and caused themselves a lot of pain[1].”

1 Timothy 6:10

Yes today I am talking about money and starting the discussion with a scripture. Having money in abundance is not a sin. God did not intend for his people to be poor. But there are many who belief that financial prosperity is wrong. The scripture states that when money becomes your only focus and your goal is to become rich then you are coveting money and not seeking God’s promises.

When you seek God’s promises the financial prosperity will come. We are not supposed to chase money or be motivated by money. I know that money will come to me as long as I focus on what God has for me to do. However I must prove that I will be able to appropriately manage what he gives me therefore I have to learn to be a good steward of my money, in order to do that I have decided to take a financial fast.

I am already a pretty frugal spender and live on a budget but I am sure there are some additional areas in which I can still improve. Besides it will be good practice for learning to be content with what I already have. Contentment is the key to avoid sinning when it comes to money and possessions. You have to learn to be content with what you have and not always yearn to have more or what you see some else with.

I don’t seek to be rich but I do welcome the financial prosperity that God is going to bring into my life. It will allow me to buy property for my family and began a legacy to leave to my children and their children. Being rich comes with it’s own set of problems. For the life of me I don’t know why people would want to have so much that they could not openly enjoy their lives because of it.

Being content and a good steward of your money are keys to success.

[1] International Standard Version (©2008)

Day Sixteen – Catalyst for Change

I put in a full eight hours today. I had lost two days of production earlier this week and I was determined today that I was not going to lose another one. I have a few minor touches to put on my project tomorrow and it will be complete.

I shut out all distractions today and set out to reach my goal. One thing I have learned is that when someone is determined to make something happen they do it without hesitation. When people make excuses, they are not determined. I have a friend who complains a lot about their current life situation, which they have been in for more than a year. I have stated to them several times that they were not desperate or determined to change the situation because they have not taken any action.

Your Challenging Place

We all have experienced being in a challenging place in our life. Some of which can place you in a state of desperation, because you become so tired and weary of that thing until all you can focus on is changing it or getting out of it. I have experienced that many times in my life.

God will allow you to be in a challenging place to push you towards change. The challenging place will become your catalyst for change. When you are at a moment where you get off track, all you have to do is recall that catalyst, which stares you in the face daily, and you will quickly reassess things and keep going.

But be careful to make sure that you are moving in the right direction and that you don’t jump too soon. Use the challenging place to your advantage to achieve your goals and make the necessary changes permanent. Don’t be scared of being out of your comfort zone because it is a great catalyst for positive change. In the event the change is not successful, you have not lost anything but gained infinite wisdom that can’t be erased. So embrace your catalyst for change and keep going.

Day Ten – It is Random, But Great

Sometimes I can be a workaholic because I like to make sure things are done. But I will admit that I don’t always know when to quit. But I am learning to read the cues. As long as I meet the goals that I set for a given day it is okay to shut it down. I completed what I needed for today but some things came up that made me want to keep going. But I cut it off and said enough.

On some nights I struggle with writing a post. But I have to write something because I committed to this 40-day journey. So it is realistic that you will not always have the most profound or long piece. That is what I am learning, but most importantly that it is okay. On the days that I have a good piece it is great. But on these days when it is random it is equally great.

My day was productive and quite satisfying therefore I am okay with ending it and leaving all new things until tomorrow. I have found writing these daily posts to be a good way to end my day. It gives me time to reflect on my day and take daily inventory. I am sure as I go back and re-read these I will begin to discover new things about myself. Like I have done with my journaling.

Writing is a good release and the perfect way to end the day.

Day Nine – Adjust Your Mirror

Inspiration comes in many shapes and forms. What inspires one may not inspire another. God has placed some extraordinary people in my life. I am often amazed at their level of devotion and admiration of my accomplishments. I don’t always see myself the way others see me. But my mirror has been changing over the past few years.

When I used to look in the mirror, I did not like what I saw. I always felt like I was unattractive and unimportant to those around me. I never wanted to have the spotlight on me and was usually very quiet. When I look in the mirror now I am in awe of the beauty that stares back at me. She looks at me now and says, “Where have you been?” “What took you so long to notice me?”

But I notice her now. She is bold and confident. She still does not like to be the center of attention but no longer shies away from it when it is given. She notices when her gifts shine brightly and bring life to those around her. Therefore, she will never ever believe that she is unimportant to those around her again.

Are you reflecting the good parts or the false parts? The law of attraction states that you attract what you think or energy attracts like energy. If your mirror focuses on negative parts of you then you will also maintain a negative energy thus attracting similar people. But once you clean your mirror and begin to see the real, positive and gifted person on the other side, you will begin to attract positive energy. You will be able to see what others see.

What do you see in your mirror?