Today was a revelation day for me. I know I am headed into new horizons and I need to know what I am looking for. God gave me that vision today. I have been depressed for the last few days. I was not sure about the exact source of the sadness but today my eyes were opened.
I was allowed to see the painful truth of my life, while some of it was nothing new to me. Most of it was still quite depressing and sad. Somehow I had allowed myself to have a pity party for a few days. Today as I was listening to an audio book, which will become our next journey, I realized that I have lost my contentment.
Why was I no longer content with what God had given me? Why was I so unhappy all of a sudden? I realized that the truth hurts and can throw you into a pity party. However although I was faced with some harsh reality, I also was allowed to get a glimpse of where I am going. This reality is necessary so that today will be the last day that I have to live in this harsh reality.
Okay so what does that mean? It does not mean that tomorrow I will magically walk out of the situation. It means that this path is necessary for me to get to my next destination. I will need to focus on implementing the vision that God has given me within the allotted time. It means I have to suck it up and realize that things could be much worse than what they are and return to my state of contentment.
I have never experienced a depression during the holidays. I know others who have. I did not like it and when I wrote my list of last time things I stated that this is the last holiday season that I will spend depressed.
So my challenge to you is to use the power of your voice and pen. Write out your list of last time things. 2011 holds so much for you but you have to be ready to let go of those things that will hinder you. Write your list today!