Day 31 – The Eve of a New Year

It is New Year’s Eve and I want to share my day with you today. I started my day with the intentions of going somewhere tonight. I did not want to sit at home for New Year’s. I really wanted to be in the sanctuary of my church in Baltimore. But I cannot drive my car right now; therefore I was trying to get two of my friends to go with me. I asked earlier in the week. I was not upset when it turned out that they would not go. One of my girlfriends moved into her first home this week. I am so happy for her and was not upset at all that she was tired.

So I sent out a text message this morning to about ten people to see what their plans were. I was really trying to text one person but it went to ten. Six people responded. All had wonderful plans. I was happy to hear that they were going to be bringing the New Year in with people they loved. I was going to go with one of my other girlfriends to a gathering at one of her friends house.

I took the children bowling, which seemed to be such a big deal. I don’t know why I was so emotional, so edgy, so just not there. We got through the bowling. The excitement wore off half way through the first game, that was not good since I had paid for two games. We painfully got through the next game and needless to say were very ready to go. But the trip was good for the children; everyone fell asleep in the car on the way home.

So I connected with my other girlfriend, the new homeowner. I want you all to know that I am extremely proud of her for achieving such an important goal. She really deserves this and the many more blessings she is due to receive. But she even offered to go with me this evening to the gathering because I did not want to be a third wheel hanging with my other girlfriend and her man.

I was still very undecided about what I really wanted to do. By the time I got home I was very emotional and did not really want to be anywhere but in Ohio. See I know where I wanted to be tonight and with whom I wanted to bring the New Year in with. But I knew that I was not able to be with them. This made me very sad and disappointed. I felt it very hard when I returned home.

So I ended up home and about 8:30 pm it was sealed that I was not going anywhere. So I turned on my computer and watched my pastor preach. His sermon was entitled “I Need a Break”. God was waiting for me. The words that he said came right out of my heart and out of my mouth just about an hour earlier. I said those very words “I need a break” and why does everything have to be a challenge for me.

The words blessed me so much and I got some much-needed answers. I was not meant to go anywhere but right to the alter tonight. As the tears rolled down my cheek, I did not realize my heart was so heavy. I could not take notes, I could not talk, all I could do was cry. But there is so much peace and excitement in knowing that God listens to me and knows what I need before I do.

I am ready for my new year and excited that I can leave these tears in 2010. I can look forward to new beginnings, double portions and peace. The word my pastor spoke said that I would never have another year like 2010. So as I look forward to 2011 I am glad to say goodbye to wandering, to feeling lost, to having less than what I am entitled to, to disappointments from the same people, and to faithless people.

Happy New Year!

Day 30 – Ten Days to Go

Wow, there are ten days left in this journey. I can see the finish line. But what does that really mean? Let’s talk about a forty-day journey. In the bible forty is symbolic of a period of testing.[1]  It is also used as a period of probation, trial and chastisement of sons (covenant people).  My forty-day journey has been a journey of trial and probation.

I did not know what to expect with this journey. I did not know what God wanted to bring forth with this testing period. But I will know on January 7, 2011. That is the end of the forty days to success. So make sure you keep reading so that you can be apart of the final chapter.

In the final ten days I don’t know what will come about but I am ready to embrace anything that comes my way. I want to thank all of you who have followed this journey with me and pray that you have been blessed.

Keep reading there is much more to come.


[1] Answers.com

Day 28 – The Ability to Keep Walking is a Key to Success

I wish I could tell you that you won’t encounter scary moments on your journey and that the road will be smooth and not bumpy. But the reality is that you will encounter moments where you may stand still in terror. But you need to have a solid foundation that will allow you to keep walking, despite the terror.

Within the first three years of my business I was hired to produce the 20th anniversary booklet for a local church. It was supposed to be a keepsake booklet. They hired me to do the layout, design the cover and get the books printed. I can’t remember how many books they needed but I am sure it was over two hundred.

I completed the layout and they loved the design of the book. I hired a printer and set out to get the books done. I had to deliver the books for the anniversary service. Well the printer messed up the cover and there was not enough time to have them reprinted. The colors did not come out right and the books were ruined. I was so upset and embarrassed. I don’t like to deliver less than perfect quality in anything I do. Needless to say they were not going to call me back next year. Yeah I can joke about it now but that was one of my terror moments. I was scared that this mistake would end my business. There was a part of me that wanted to go put my head in the sand and quit this business all together.

Find Your Strength

Habakkuk 3:19 says “The Lord God is my strength my personal bravery, and my invincible army; He makes my feet like hinds feet and will make me to walk [not stand still in terror, but to walk] and make [spiritual progress upon my high places of trouble, suffering, or responsibility]!” This was one of the many times in my life I was able to stand on this exact strength and keep walking.

I did not end my business. I went to the Pastor of the church, apologized, gave them a refund and delivered the books, all knowing that they would probably never hire me again. So it was a learning experience for me. A costly one but it helped to define the foundation of my business.

So I say to you, find your pillar of strength. Use whatever source you have in your life to lean on for the strength to keep you going when you encounter a terror moment. The ability to keep walking and not stand still in terror is a key to success.

Day 23 – Cycle of Failure Starts with Guilt

The Cycle of Failure starts with guilt. Guilt is defined as feelings of culpability esp. for imagined offenses or from a sense of inadequacy[1]. We all make poor choices and mistakes that lead to a sense of inadequacy. Especially when we seem to repeat these choices. I have an exercise that I use with my support group that helps them to discover the root of why you repeat poor choices. My lesson is called Uncovering the Truth and it is based and excerpt called The Story of the Pit from the book A Jewel in His Crown by Priscilla Shirer.

Chapter One

I walk down the street
There’s a deep hole in the sidewalk
I fall in
It’s not my fault
It takes a long time to get out

Chapter Two

I walk down the same street
There’s a deep hole in the sidewalk
I see it there
I still fall in
It’s not my fault
It takes a long time to get out

Chapter Three

I walk down the same street
There’s a deep hole in the sidewalk
I pretend I don’t see it
I fall in
I must be a victim
It takes forever to get out

By the time you reach chapter three, guilt has set in and becomes your new roommate. You clearly realize there is something wrong. Repeatedly walking down this same street and ending up with the same results has begun to make you feel inadequate “I must be a victim.” However, we are all imperfect humans, not all victims and we have to learn from our mistakes. But now you have feelings of resentment and are not able to forgive yourself for repeating this same behavior. The inability to forgive makes the guilt rise and leads to anger.

If you are at this point in the cycle use this prayer today to conquer unforgiveness.

Heavenly Father,

I forgive (enter the name of the person, including yourself) for anything wrong he or she (I) has ever done or said, any unforgiveness or grudges toward me or my family that (enter the same name, including yourself) has at this time and I bless (enter same name) in the Name of Jesus Christ. I ask you Father to forgive and bless (enter same name) in the Name of Jesus Christ. Father show him or her (me) Your mercy and loving-kindness, and teach him or her (me).

In Jesus Name I claim this victory today according to John 14:14.

Amen


[1] Merriam-Webster’s Collegiate Dictionary Tenth Edition. 2001

Day Twenty – Don’t Worry Be Happy

Don’t worry be happy now. I remember that song it has a little silly tune and very simple lyrics, but a very profound message. Yet there are many people who live under tremendous stress worrying about things that are out of their control or not even in the near future. It seeps into their day and steals their moments of joy and happiness.

Christmas is less than a week away and I am excited! Not because I am expecting any lavish gifts or because I will be going somewhere special, but because it is an important family holiday that recognizes the birth of Christ. It is a time of joy and peace not of worry and stress. I purposely do not think about anything that is not related to me enjoying the holiday during this time.

Flash back to last year when I was surprised with a lay off weeks before Christmas. Yes it could have ruined my holiday, but I did not allow it too. I continued with the plans I had for the holiday and my children were ecstatic with their gifts. I dealt with the layoff and the rent in January. I truly enjoyed the whole week playing the Wii with my kids.

As it turns out the situations that I could have allowed to bring on stress worked out just fine. Nothing fell apart and we were fine. So my holiday gift to you all this year is to don’t worry be happy. Allow the peace, joy and warmth of this holiday season to envelope you and enjoy the holiday that you celebrate. Those things you want to be so worried about will still be there in January so deal with them then.

Happy Holidays!!

Day Nine – Adjust Your Mirror

Inspiration comes in many shapes and forms. What inspires one may not inspire another. God has placed some extraordinary people in my life. I am often amazed at their level of devotion and admiration of my accomplishments. I don’t always see myself the way others see me. But my mirror has been changing over the past few years.

When I used to look in the mirror, I did not like what I saw. I always felt like I was unattractive and unimportant to those around me. I never wanted to have the spotlight on me and was usually very quiet. When I look in the mirror now I am in awe of the beauty that stares back at me. She looks at me now and says, “Where have you been?” “What took you so long to notice me?”

But I notice her now. She is bold and confident. She still does not like to be the center of attention but no longer shies away from it when it is given. She notices when her gifts shine brightly and bring life to those around her. Therefore, she will never ever believe that she is unimportant to those around her again.

Are you reflecting the good parts or the false parts? The law of attraction states that you attract what you think or energy attracts like energy. If your mirror focuses on negative parts of you then you will also maintain a negative energy thus attracting similar people. But once you clean your mirror and begin to see the real, positive and gifted person on the other side, you will begin to attract positive energy. You will be able to see what others see.

What do you see in your mirror?

Day Six – A Day of Rest

Do you know I have always been my own coach and I push myself? But I never knew how to unwind and just rest. I would push myself to exhaustion; I guess sometimes I still do, based upon what happened yesterday. 🙂

But about a year ago I started to take a day of rest. I adopted Saturdays as my day of rest. It is my day to do whatever I want, I don’t serve others on this day. I don’t cook and if I want to stay in bed and watch TV that is what I do.

In the beginning my family would continue to ask me what was for dinner and I would have to remind them that it is Saturday, my day of rest. Now, my children never starve, my two boys are old enough to cook for themselves and I still take care of my little one. But it is really a day of rest for me. I have found that it is a much-needed rest. Sometimes I get bored and get tempted to open my laptop but I don’t.

When I wake up Sunday morning, I am refreshed and ready to begin my new week. I get my word in the morning from my Pastor and then I go about my day to prepare for the upcoming week. Sunday is a big cooking day for me. I always like to have a nice dinner on Sundays and I bake the kids a treat.

Take a day of rest and refresh yourself, God did. You are not going to lose anything by taking a day of rest.

See you on day seven.

Day Seven – The Finish Line

Wow we have completed the first week of 40 days to success! As I reflect back on the past week, I celebrate this first success in the journey. Although I got off track, I finished the week. I made it across the finish line. (Don’t you here the crowd cheering?)

Yesterday I had a conversation with a close friend. We have walked a similar journey in some areas of our lives. As we were reflecting we wondered why we kept repeating some patterns especially the part about moving quite frequently. Moving so much makes me feel incomplete, like I have no place to be. I have learned in my journey with God that when we have to repeat things over and over it means we did not complete the task the way he intended.

Walking in Circles

He allowed the Israelites to wander in the wilderness for 40 years for disobedience (not doing things his way). Imagine walking around the same mountain for 40 years. I wonder if any of them questioned God to find out what they had to do to stop walking in circles? Well when I find myself walking in circles, repeating the same thing two times, (okay maybe its more than twice) I begin to ask questions. I begin to examine my choices and steps to see if they are in line with the plan.

I have been in this place far too many times in the past seven years. It is an uncomfortable place for me, therefore each time that I am here I rush to get out of it. Only it is a temporary fix and then I find myself back here again. This time I have decided to do something different. I am walking the straight path towards God’s promise and plan for my life.

The Straight and Narrow Path

God intends for me to live a life of commitment and stability. He wants my commitment to him and his plan for my life, which will bring about stability. This is a straight and narrow path that leads only to God. But I have been so focused on doing it my way, to hurry up and get out of the uncomfortable place, that I keep ending up walking in circles. But that uncomfortable place can be a place of growth and propel you into your permanent placement, but with growth comes pain and sacrifice. I don’t know too many people who welcome either.

This time I have committed myself to this process. I am not rushing to get out this time. I will walk out this time and never return to this path again. I have also verbally spoken this into existence, it has happened in other areas of my life and true to my word I never walked in those circles again. Therefore I declare today that I will step off the path of moving constantly and commit myself to God’s process towards stability. This is the last year my children and I will live with relatives and friends. Going forward we will have our own and declare that we will always have a place to be as long as we walk the path with God.

Day Five – Time to Empower

Guess what happened today I fell asleep before I was able to write about day five. I have been working so hard this week to stay on my schedule. Writing each post at almost midnight and getting up at 5:30 a.m. to start my day. By Friday evening I was exhausted and fell asleep early before completing my post.

But I must stay true to what I started and complete the post even if it’s late. Today was a refreshing day and the perfect end to the week. I am a Life Coach and God has blessed me with a gift to help people succeed.  It gives me such joy to know that someone’s life will change for the better after experiencing coaching.

I sent out a letter to the top 100 friends and associates in my life and asked them to help support this vision God has given me for coaching. There are many people who need the services I provide and I want to get the word out to as many people as I can. It is time to empower people to excel.

I have also decided as a Christmas gift I am giving away 10 Time to Soar coaching packages. I believe in sowing seeds into people’s lives.  So beginning in January 2011 ten people will begin a journey that will take them to heights that they have never been before.

While there is still LIFE there is HOPE. If you are still breathing it is not too late to empower someone today or to allow someone else to empower you. Don’t be afraid to give and sow into others.

See you on day six.

Day Three – Writing is My Destiny

My day started off with the completion of a coaching arrangement. I am really satisfied with the results of the coaching because I accomplished my goals. We talked about my writing and it was confirmed in the session that writing is my destiny.

I published an article today. I have not written since September. That is not good since writing is supposed to be my profession now. How will I get paid if I don’t write? Sometimes I don’t know what to write or I get anxious about the process of writing. I overcame that today and went for it with an idea that came to me this afternoon.

Today was the first struggle to find something to write about on the journey. But I just started typing and here it is. I watched a show on TBN today, I like watching Christian shows. It was like they were all talking directly to me. I heard that your promise is on the way. God has you in a transformation and you will have to step out away from the crowd to get what was promised. This sounds so much like what I am doing now. I am taking such a leap walking away from what would be the norm for others and taking a different path.

So I will keep going see you on day four.